Tad's Acoustic Series Part One - I Came to Play

So here we go...part one in a (insert number here) part series of songs I wrote many, many years ago and have recently decided to record one last time...just to share before I decide to give up the whole music thing all together.  

First of all, musically at least, this is probably my favorite of any song I've ever written (which is sort of like Nascar beginning their season w/ the biggest race of all).  I like the funky/fun vibe mixed w/ the usual depressing lyrics (my trade mark).  If memory serves, I wrote this in about an hour, sitting in my bedroom in my parents house.  Speaking of said lyrics, I suppose I should share them before we go any further:

I wanna feel this way forever how ‘bout you, you ready for something new?

I don’t expect things to get colder how ‘bout you, you ready to freeze right through?

You’ve got your reasons and I’ve got mine

And you won’t believe them but I don’t mind

Because I’ve felt this way forever it’s nothing new, are you ready to be abused?

   

Someone once told me things will always work for good if I only wait

I tried to believe them as I counted down the days and days and days…

Am I counting the right way?

What’s that look I don’t believe it, what’s it say, are things ready to go my way

I know I used to take for granted everything, just wish something would stay the same

You never were in it could things be worse

The way that you spin it I’m just not sure

Because I’ve felt this way forever, I came to play, and I wish you’d go away

Got time for a quick story how ‘bout something true

You may have jumped before me but I was ready before you

Don’t spout no explanation I’m careless either way

The day I lost you forever was the day my world was gained

This was one of my first lessons in the way that my songs could affect the ones who it was written about.  I flat out got called out on this one.  To me, it was a playful expression of my feelings, to her it was an indictment...and I've never forgotten that feeling of knowing how my "art" hurt someone's feelings.  In fact, it probably affected every song I wrote after it...in all actually it was the last truly "good" song I wrote...I put "good" in quotation marks b/c it's entirely subjective...but just my opinion.  

Song writing is a difficult animal...at least for me.  I have yet to learn how to write from a 3rd party observer perspective...everything I've ever written has been extremely personal...and maybe that's why it's been relatively good...not sure.  I'll be honest, I haven't written a decent song since I've been married w/ kids...b/c expressing your true feelings in such a vulnerable situation as that just seems to risky.  I love my wife, I love my kids...but to dive deep into the inner recesses of my dark soul honestly just seems like it leaves too much room for hurt for those I love.  Anyway, this is the first installment.  I can't promise any regular schedule or anything b/c that's just not how things work nowadays...but I am excited to record my "hits" and share them w/ you...and tell you a bit about what each of them mean, or at least meant to me at the time.  Please share, please enjoy...and please tell me what you think.

Love you all,

Tad

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